LIFESTYLE | June's Happy List

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It's fair to say that May was a tough old month. I'm not one to look back and be like 'Argh, today was such a bad day!' and all that because most things don't tend to bother me but my brother being so unwell in hospital was absolutely horrible, it's the worst thing seeing a loved one so ill...stupid little things like your bus being late or leaving your umbrella on the train and all the other things people tend to get so wound up about mean nothing at all. For the first time I had some understanding of what it must be like for my family when they see me really ill because of CF being a bitch, even though I've never been as ill as my brother was. He's thankfully at home and getting better though, slowly but surely. 

Leaving my job was also a huge bummer but I still think it was the right thing to do. I loved it and miss it so much but the hours were just too long and it was too far away...it was affecting my health and I had to keep calling sick all the time which I hated even though they were so lovely about it. I'd rather have a job that I'd actually be able to do! I've applied for a few since but had no luck so far, rejection is never nice but I'm not taking it personally...there were others simply more qualified or maybe they just applied before I did or things like that. I feel certain that by the end of the summer I'll have another job so I'm not too worried. 

Then just to add on top of all that I got this huge wave of loneliness, something that I think comes hand in hand with Cystic Fibrosis and other long term conditions. It's an issue that I'd like to discuss in a future post so I'll leave it for now.

Maybe because it's halfway through the year I'd got into a bit of a slump, kinda like how Wednesday's hump day y'know? I'd kept it all together until Saturday night where I had a right old pity party, I'm talking crying in the shower and writing a cringey tweet kinda thing, staying up all night feeling sorry for myself. It did me absolutely no favours because when I get upset it makes me really ill...that tight-chested, heavy-hearted feeling really doesn't help when you can't even breathe properly anyway! I know from experience that I really can't feel sad because it just makes me so ill so I gave myself a big kick up the bum and realised things aren't so bad after all. If I'm going to be having all this free time I may as well make the most of it! So, feeling inspired by Hayley and Kirsty, here's a list of the things I'd like to achieve this June, aka The Happy List:

1. Book my first driving lesson.
2. Spring clean my room (I already had a huge wardrobe clearout and stuck it all on depop, my username is josiesjournal if you want to grab yourself a bargain!)
3. Cook at least one dinner a week for my family because it's not fair my mum has to do it all, especially as she hates cooking!
4. Visit The Queen's Gallery, Buckingham Palace.
5. Work on my Etsy store and maybe set up a Facebook page.
6. Start reading a new book, possibly something by Sebastian Faulks because I adored Birdsong.
7. Do some baking! Nothing fancy, just a mix from a box would do (lazy, but they taste good ok?)
8. Go to the cinema, I really want to see Maleficent.
9. Don't buy any new clothes because I have plenty, it's definitely time to 'shop my closet'!
10. Comment on at least 5 new blogs a day.

A bit of an ambitious list but I'll give it a go! What would make it on your Happy List?

Josie x